To all you birth mothers who are having second thoughts, take it from me sometimes it is the best thing to do. Don’t think of it as giving your child away, see it as giving your child a new life and a chance to be somebody in life.

I am a 30 year old mother of 4 beautiful children and when I found out I was pregnant with my fifth baby I was in total denial but, as the months went by, reality hit. I realized that I didn’t want, need and could not afford a new addition to our family.

Raising kids is a hard job and I struggle every day, financially and emotionally. It wouldn’t be fair to a new baby, myself or my other children. So I got out the Yellow Pages and started calling adoption agencies. It was the most difficult task of my life. Every time I looked at one of my kids my heart hurt, I wondered if I was doing the right thing.

Once I chose Adoption Planners and I looked over all the profiles of families, I knew as soon as I saw this one profile that I found my adoptive family. It wasn’t what I read about them so much as what I saw in their eyes. They were filled with love and hope, almost like a hunger. And that is what made me have a clear conscience with no guilt and no regrets.

Because they lived out of state and I was due soon, I wasn’t able to meet with them but we talked a few times. I could hear the nervousness in their voices and they sounded like such carefree and happy people. It gave me a peaceful feeling, I was so sure they were the ones!

When the day I delivered finally arrived, my daughter’s adoptive parents, Leslie and Alicia, flew in immediately. As they came in the room, I could see them looking at the baby with so much love. I may not have been taking home a baby, but there was not one ounce of regret, worry, or unhappiness, because I knew my daughter was so loved by two really wonderful women! Love, Erin